whats happening.

So it seems to be valentines day...this has to be the first time in 6 years i've bin single its weird not doin anything but if i hounest i dont really mind i've never really enjoyed it. im sure one day ill like someone enought to actually enjoy this mushy holiday.

Its bin a week since i got of hospital and i am actually trying to do all my medication this time, im not perfect with it yet but i am slowly making my way to be the perfect drugy.

I love being a mommy its the one thing in my life that i actually think i can do well. i never wanted a fancie job and dream man...all i ever wanted is a baby, someone who is a part of me and would love me just cuz i gave birth to them. So when i got max i was overwelmed. And tbf he's gorgous.

As muchas i love being single for the first time in years, i have to admit i hate sleeping alone, so thats where my giant pregnancy pillow comes in handy lol. Its nice to only have to worry about me and max and not have to worry about what some bloke thinks about me.

anyway i've waffled on enough. till next time i bid you fair well.

peace out.
Tanya.

my lil boy

This is my gawjus little boy Maxwell Edward Phillips-Hinken ...he's now 6 months old and he's my world i was always nervous about weather or not i would be able to have children so when i found out i was pregnant i was over the moon.. he's my number 1.

not in control

Once again i find myself sat in hospital feeling as lonely as ever. This place never fails to make me question evetything because unfortunatly im so bored all that i have left to do is think. When im home i can runaway from the fact im ill and pretend it doesn't really exsist but here you know it all to real and you cant run away from me.
When you home i make a very bog point to put my thougths and how much of a mess i am and put it away into box after box but when im here its like each box slowly comes of with ever bad thing thats happen till i end up crying.

On the plus side atleast i know when im here max is in good hands with my lovely mommy.